Tuesday, Mar. 04, 2003
tangled web.

You know.

I've learned a thing or two over the years.... non hierarchical power structures do not work. when someone says, "i want to love y'all jus' tha same" they are so full of shit. or greedy, or missing the boat.

it becomes a game of "collect the lovers" until all your friends are alone and miserable and writing bitter diaryland entries. until... Until... one day one of them disputes your ability to count the time between lovers as equal, and like fighting siblings, (He loves me more! No, he loves me more! ) Until voila...you go back to loving everyone the same minus some unsightly dead weight. and once again, this Badsnake entry rears it's head.

So this is my case for my recent move back towards a more monogamous standpoint. I *know* poly works. I've seen it. But I've seen it sooo fucked up. Becasue folks are so broken that they get greedy and refuse the make a stand on who they love.

And then they get into all the the pants of all the folks who I like until there are no un sullied pants left... And that leaves me with no-one. Because I have an issue. I hate having to crate a map of involvement. and I'm a leo. I want it for me. and seeing that thing, for me, on the map of involvement, connected to all I know, is like tossing lime jello on my libido (and not in a sexy sort of way)

But I deal.

And hopefully there is a new crush, unconnected from all this dyke drama. Shhhh it's secret.

P r e v i o u s
N e x t

what's the bat channel? - 12:57 p.m. , Monday, Mar. 29, 2004

Gun Candy. (Valentines Day 2004) - 6:13 p.m. , Sunday, Feb. 15, 2004

A Chicken Little Day. - 1:36 a.m. , Friday, Jan. 23, 2004

An alliance against the Evil Aunt. - 1:26 a.m. , Wednesday, Dec. 24, 2003

hell. frozen over. - 8:14 a.m. , Sunday, Dec. 07, 2003

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