Saturday, Nov. 29, 2003
There are drugs for that.

So yeah, I've been depressed lately. (recent past lately) like un-motivated, and like the 'I' portion of "INFP" was getting the better of me... no communicado unless by emails, or postal mail... very calm and under the guise of gaining centeredness. It was internal quiet time that was balancing, but sad.

So Anyway, I got a call from the folks who diagnosed me with PCOS And they had more tests to give. But there is money! yay! So I go I draw blood, and it seems important (even though my veins are never anywhere to be found.) I give them 10+ tubes, and ultrasounds, and pictures of my ovaries, and all sorts of shenanigans. But I have no healthcare. freecare is expired, and even then, the great mystery of this disease is that most doctors have no clue what it is, and only know that "you go on the pill" that's it. and this disease is MUCH more complicated than that.

So I get this pill. Glucophage. for insulin resistance (PCOS and insulin resistance are friends) and like magic, my mood increases... Like I walked to the store -- a very simple task that I didn't do for these darker months... and I can draw it all back to my po-ass high carb food consumption. I wasn't processing the energy... sooo... I was getting tired, lethargic and cranky...

I mean I was ready to get me some prozac or some shit. (which for me a a HUGE thing... I'm not into admitting my brokenness, and my inability to fix my own head) And to find that it was not head trauma, but sugar trauma. amazing. So yeah, I'm feeling much better...

So much better that I went dancing to funk this eve... leadsinger was like a bobblehead james brown... but SO much fun. I cut a rug, I got my groove back. I'm thrilled.

P r e v i o u s
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Gun Candy. (Valentines Day 2004) - 6:13 p.m. , Sunday, Feb. 15, 2004

A Chicken Little Day. - 1:36 a.m. , Friday, Jan. 23, 2004

An alliance against the Evil Aunt. - 1:26 a.m. , Wednesday, Dec. 24, 2003

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